I want to say something about jobs vs dreams. Maybe it's an incorrect perception on my part, but I'm feeling it particularly acutely today. Prolly cuz it's Xmas.
You know how ppl take a job that's not their dream job, for money. In our case, it's taking a good paying job rather than resigning to the life of a "starving artist." That's what I did.
Do I have a problem with my day job? No, I really like it. I'm not 1 of those movie-cliche "I hate my job" types. Because as a perfectionist personality, when I am really good at doing something, and other ppl acknowledge that about me as well, the job itself becomes a pleasure even if it's not about art. If there are other personalities here like me, you should understand what I'm saying.
So that's not the problem.
The problem starts after the job hours. As you know, your social circle often revolves around your colleagues or the ppl you meet at work. Maybe you have old dear school friends but often they move away or you move away. In my case, I can't find kindred spirits in the work circles. Sure they're good ppl, I go to their weddings and such... But they're not kindred spirits. Often it becomes a bore, or a chore.
That's why I come here, I'm sure. I've been spoiled by the internet. But the connections you find on the net only go so far. Without a physical presence, everyone here are still just ghosts to each other, in the end. Y'know? I can be with my real life friends, or I can be on the forum here, but in the end, I'm still kinda bummed at both places. It's either spiritual distance, or physical distance. Both equally isolating.
That's when you realize, if you had become a "starving artist," going to art school, making artist friends, well... that's when you'd find your kindred spirits, at work or after work. That's what you didn't consider, when you first said to yourself "I'm ok with having a non-art day job... I can always draw as a hobby after work."
I just wish that everyone who comes here all live in the same city. Same town, even. That'd be awesome.
I've been wearing blue this whole day.
Good post, man. I feel the same way about everything you said.
...Hey, what if we had a Drunk Duck Convention? Don't we have something like that? It would be similar to what you are thinking, only a little less permanent. ;)