so don't turn your back on this
if all is lost, then how did we find love?
(and we could)go back to the way it was
and sacrifice the way it could be
we could fall apart
we're caught up in pain
if all is lost, then how did we find love?
i found letters from better times
that you had balled up and thrown away for me to find
(and we could)go back to the way it was
and sacrifice the way it could be
we could fall apart or we could fall in love again
(and we could)go back to the way it was
and sacrifice the way it could be
we could fall apart or we could fall in love again
is this all in vain?--you stepped on my heart,
you spit on my name--did you really need to?
i made a promise i'd never be caught up in pain
but it seems the only way(that we could)
go back to the way it was
and sacrifice the way it could be
we could fall apart or we could fall in love again
(and we could)go back to the way it was
and sacrifice the way it could be
we could fall apart or we could fall in love again
and we found love
you have taken the best of me
and turned it in to the rest of you--untrue
like a moth to the flame that burns so clean--it's me
(and i scream)you have taken the best of me
but now all is lost....how did we find love?
go back to the way it was
and sacrifice the way it could be
we could fall apart or we could fall in love again
(and we could)go back to the way it was
and sacrifice the way it could be
we could fall apart or we could fall in love again
we could fall in love
fall apart - deepfield
... Im not dead... im still me... im still who i am... i dont have the courage to tell you to your face so i will just rely on your curiosity to read my update... you know who you are... your more than one... but one specifically... i never died... ive always been here. ive always been hideing... its still me ive never left, i never had a funeral, it kills me to think that im considerd dead to you. im considered dead to most. but im not... im still me, i still cry, i still remember, i still love you. my heart is filled with memories of us, of you. i still get embaressed when i see a stop sign, i still look at the moon, i remember the game nights i remember the peanut butter cookies, im still afraid of reclineing chairs, i still draw, i remember pride, i still like ears and foxes, i remember catching leaves... i remember so much... i never died the dead dont remember. i cry when i think about everything ive lost, ive lost friends, ive lost love, and i cant help but be scared that i dont know how to love, i try to be strong, i try but nothing i do works... i may actually die soon, i am no longer able to control my emotions. i cry i sob, i get angry but then theres nothing cuz nothing i do, no matter how many tears it wont bring you back... it wont bring me back from this fake death. i just want a hand to reach out and pull me back, back to you, back to the old times, the happiness. but you dident... the day i left her should of just been the day they prononced me dead, even though this heart still beats its hard for me to live with out you...
...sarah you know you every thing you wrote i'd love to believe, i'd like to think you realy cared when we split up but ...when i think back i put everything in to use... you were my love, my world, ...i thought you felt the same way about me to, but you didnt well at least i couldn't see it. The day you told me what had happend i thought i was going to be sick... and as much as you would like to blame me i did the most to try to make use work. But you still just wouldnt leave her alone, i dont know why... i know now you didnt love her so it make's me a little sadder for her and myself because if you loved her and did what you did then i'd understand a bit. But she just got cought up in all this drama... but i can tell you one thing i STOP'd i stop'd blamen myself forevery thing that's happend.
but you know to awnser your little poem/song thing no your not dead you are still you it's just i dont think you know how that is yet. The sarah ...my Kity,i knew and love'd wouldn't never do drung's to have fun are have start'd smokeing... im sorry that you went agenst everything you stood for and stuff... but those little things thos little dytail make you you and that's not the you i know so sure i bet you remember and recall all the moments we were in love and having fun because i still do to it's just you never once not ONCE!!! try'd to do something for us are sacrifice for the sake of us ...so that's why i knoe FOR A FACT that it hurt me way more then you...
pluse the fact you got with someone in like the first week... that's not what i call morning. and i notice'd something one day... when ever you dont want to be with someone anymore you cheat on them to end it, mest up. oh and you should change your profile on drunkduck... your not a lesbain it's lying.
Sarah it realy does pain me to think of how much you've changed. i mean yes people do change it's norm but i think EVEN YOU! dont know what sarah like's anymore. you mold yourself in to who ever your around the most at the moment i think that's who we last'd so long cuz you made yourself what you that i would like. but you are every bit and peace of Adrian you both need to feel love'd and that's what make's me said in order for you to love you need to love yourself. that's why you'll never fall in love untill you find love for yourself.
im sorry i went on and on but it's the truth...
But you know when i think anout it EVERY THING!
...
you'r still my faverit person it the hole world.
Because i realy did love you in every way your beautiful body that till this day i can feel me huging you and what i thought at the time a Beautiful mind... and i think what what make's me sad the most cuz it's like my kity was just a ...
Beautiful Lovely dream that i wake from.
